August 25th 2011

I feel lucky to have such an amazing doctor. This man truly is one of the most incredible people I have ever met. He has this ability to make me, ME of all people, feel like everything is going to be ok.

After our second pre-pregnancy consult I left feeling hopeful, and at the very least content, about the future. We went for this second consultation to get the docs perspectives on our two miscarriages and also to get his advice on where we should go from here.

In a nutshell he stated that the first loss doesn't concern him much. It is sad and a loss but very, very common and a typical blighted ovum. The doctor stated that most women experience this type of loss at least once in their lifetimes and never even know that they were pregnant.

The second loss, however, concerned the doctor a bit more. We saw a strong heartbeat and all lab tests (as well as my protein s activitiy level) indicated this was a very strong and sustainable pregnancy. So, my doctor was as stunned as we were when things went wrong. However, after having read a great deal about lutenal phase defect I asked him what he thought about this. And, he smiled and said he agrees that this is very likely the cause of my issues. Another reason I love this doctor, we are on the exact same page 99% of the time. In any event, he explained that while articles will say this diagnosis is achieved through an easy blood test, it is actually a very difficult problem to accurately test for. So, he's decided to treat me as if I have the defect and go from there.

I thought after all of that loss the last thing I would want to do is think about getting pregnant again. But, to be honest, when you're really ready to have a baby (at least for me) few things can deter you from that wanting. I guess this is what that tick, tick, tick of the biological clock feels like. We want to be parents and bring a child into our family. We want our love to grow in the special way creating a child allows it to. We hope that a child is in store for us and we've decided we're going to give it another try.

So for now, Fred and I have "our homework" to do- as the doctor said. lol!